Im So Over It

Im tired of people calling me HEARTLESS. Just because I dont cry for everything like alot of people do. I just dont see the point in crying over the dumbest shit. Like when people cry only because someone else is crying. WTF nothings wrong with you say your sorry for them or whatever the case may be and get the fuck over it. I dont cry, last time I cried was when my grandmother died and that was a year ago. Im a very nice person but dont expect me to like everyone and like everything you do, because I keep it real Im mean. OMG im sick of it. People ask for friends like me in their lives but they cant really handle it. Me being this way dosent mean that I dont care about anyone or anything. I have feelings like everyone else, I hurt, I get sad and other emotions do exsist inside of me. Im not a baby im a grown ass person who knows how to deal with things in a grown up way. I dont always get my way and things sometime dont work out the way I plan, it may be dissapointing but life goes on. I show my affection for people in a different way than others. Just because Im not mushy or all on top of my boyfriend in the public eye dosent mean Im mean or dont care about him. Dont get me wrong I support public affection (to a certaint extent) but what I do with my man is me and my mans business. I tell my boyfriend I love him when necessary. That seems harsh but what people dont understand is that Ive been with him a very long time and saying I love him is for him so trust me he knows. I can look at him or just laugh at his corny jokes and he knows that I love him, he knows that at the end of the day its me and him, that nothing else matters. We're in an authentic relationship, somehing real. Yes REAL. We're not one of those little fake ass couples who been together nine months and say "Oh, we are so madly in love ima be with this boy forever!!!" and then break up 2 weeks later. Ive been with him through THICK (and I mean Thick as the country ass woods thick) and the thin for 4 years and I give my all to this boy. When asked do I love my mom I say "she's coo". LoL that I can admit does sound a little mean but serious tip YES I do love my mother but my way of showing her that I love her is not acting like she's my super hero..."Oh I love my mommy" like some 5 year old kid. The woman isn't perfect and I dont like everything she does, so yes I love her, but that dosen't mean I have to say it everyday. If you really know me then you know that I give 100% if Im really down for you and when you need me Im there, I may not cry with you but I'll whipe your tears. Im always the mother figure and good friend that gets taken advantage of so if your tryna find a reason for my ways, there you go. I do get tierd of being the tough mean one but thats just the way it is. I will NOT compromise me as a person for the likes of others, you can Ba-Lee-Dat.

I want to apologize to people who took offence to anything that I said in this blog

this is me and if you would like for me to explain to you exactly what I meant I'll be glad to...